Away from here.
I just wanna chill in a quiet, serene place. With soft breezes.
And have nothing to worry about.
How nice that would be huh?
I'm kinda sick of everything right now. I've lost the drive, the motivation to do anything.
No INSTEP, no summer research. No nothing.
Life is so boring. Mundane.
If I ever have kids in the future, I'll fully support and encourage them to pursue their dreams. Do what they want to do. But of course they must be 100% sure about the path they want to take, and actually have the talent to do so. Practicality, right?
I've lost my chance. I don't want them to lose theirs too. Be an artist, a musician, a dancer. Whatever they want to be.
Back to me.
If you think I'm a strong-willed, cheery kid who doesn't really care about anything, you're wrong.
I just appear to be. Truth is, I'm trying. Trying to stay happy, trying to help make others happy, trying to do the best I can, to do everything I can do, as me.
But sometimes, constantly trying is a really tiring job. Especially if it brings no success.
So I pray. I fantasise. I wish. I think of things worth looking forward to (albeit not a lot). So I can get past every single day.
Came across this quote, "Sometimes, giving up does not mean you are weak. It means you are strong enough to let go."
Is it true? Or is it just some comforting words?
No don't worry. I'm not giving up my life, that's for sure.
But giving up something is really really tough. Don't you think?
